I didn't die today. I'm sorry.
It's depression. The likely cause of her condition...
...is stress. -All the 1,700 yen per hour that you did doesn't even commensurate...
...to one day's work. It's just half a man's work.
I blame you for making your mother
become like that because you can never stick with any job!
Sorry.
You don't have to make those work clothes look any better.
These clothes mean you're doing your job.
No matter how incompetent I am...
and no matter how pathetic...
There's still someone who acknowledges me.
-I haven't seen you for awhile. -Yes.
-There's something different about you. -Really?
You look a little sharper now.
Well, I thought you lost interest in coming here.. it seems like it.
Lost interest?
I thought you gave up looking for a job.
Uh, no, I was just a little busy lately.
But you don't have a job and you say you're busy?
Actually, I am working.
I mean, it's a part-time job.
I see. So you're going to your part-time job.
-What work is it? -Uh, construction work.
I see.
You have a way to earn money, but even so...
it's not such an easy job, is it?
But...
construction work isn't that hard.
Eh? What do you mean?
If not for some people, I'm not sure if I could have continued with it.
-What is it? -Why do you look as if you're proud of it?
No, th-that was nothing.
I'm still bent on finding a job.
And when I do...
I will quit that part-time work... so please help me on this.
Yoisho.
-Oi, Seiji. -Yes.
-Slow down, will ya? -Uh, no, I'm fine.
I've grown accustomed to this by now.
Yoisho. Yoisho.
Looks like you'll be needing more rest...
right, Seiji-kun? -That's what you get for being too spirited!
You're not yet in good condition.
You'll end up delaying the work.
I'm really sorry.
See, Seiji?
The only one who should know better about your body is yourself...
...try to remember that. -But I was just...
trying to catch up with that half a man's work that you said I wasn't able to give earlier.
Half a man's work, eh?
Well, I can't say yet if that was a full adult's worth of work.
You mean I'm not there yet?
If you already see yourself an adult, then what the hell makes a guy an adult?
-Good work. -Good work.
Good job.
You were too eager today, huh?
Why... you think I got carried away too much?
-Yeah. -What?
-Come drink with me. -Huh?
-Let's go... -Hey, I.. I'm going...
Hey... I...
But I have a scooter.
-Oh, here, this way. -Sorry for waiting.
Oh, Seiji, good work!
-Here you go. -Oh, thanks!
This dish, we reserve this only after we're done with the week's work.
Try it, knock yourself out. It's really good.
Mmm... Delicious.
Seiji, are you still looking for a job?
-Well.. yeah. -How is it?
Well, right now, I'm having difficulty looking for a regular job.
Maybe because I come from an average college.
But an average college is still good, right? I and the guys weren't able to go to college.
But you don't have to get into an average college for this type of work anyway.
-Yes, we do. -Huh?
You have to qualify for the civil engineering exam, and aside from that...
you need to have work experience...
You have to be a college grad, 18 months of practicum and a high school degree is a must.
College grads like Chiba-san... She majored in Civil Engineering...
...She's a year ahead of me. -Tesshi is aiming to become a Public Works
Construction Management Engineer.
Well, I'm just too dumb so it's impossible to get those qualifications
I think I'm just suited to construction work...
I mean, the work that I'm doing now.
Well, I'm going now.
Yeah... No, we got this.
-It's ok. -This is enough.
-Thanks for the hard work. -You, too.
-Good job. -See you.
Told him there's no need.
Tesshi's sorta like a migrant worker. He still has to send money to his family in Shizuoka.
Even if he's still young, he's already set with his career.
-Tesshi? -Yeah.
I've always known him as a determined guy.
I think he got to choose his path because of family circimstances.
But still in order to rise up in this field...
one has to work really hard.
I see.
I wouldn't be surprised if Tesshi gets ahead of me in life.
I bet~.
-You talk as if you're so sure. -Well, you're the one who said it.
The hell I did. Uh, anyway, about Oetsu...
...did he really major in Public Works?
-Yeah. -And what about you, were you already
decided since high school that you'll go through with this type of work?
-Yeah. -Why?
-What do you think? -I don't know...
But I don't know a lot of girls who would choose this type of work.
-Yeah. -Why?
-It's a secret. -Why're you so secretive about it?
Because I've never yet told anyone.
-Oh.. -Is it a girl?
-Who knows. -Don't deny it.
...You're looking tensed. -Shut up.
-Yes? -Seiji? I'm sorry.
I don't know whether I drank my medicine or not.
Oh, well.. I'll check it when I get back...
so just wait for me.
But I have to drink it now that I'm done with dinner.
and you'll be late coming home tonight.
It's ok, it's ok... Don't worry, just wait for me.
I'll be back soon.
Sorry I gotta go.
-Ok then, see you tomorrow. -Yeah.
It's ok. You took the medicine correctly.
I'm sorry.
The trash... seems like it's already piling up an awful lot.
Hmm? Haven't you been throwing them out?
-I'm sorry. -Uh, no.. forget it.
Anyway, I'll do the segregating from now on...
and I'll take them out as well.
Oh, and also...
Sis and Tomoya will be coming here on Sunday..
She called me awhile ago.
-Yes. -Ok.
Good night.
"...so I'll be an astronaut. That's what I want to be in the future."
Thank you.
-Next will be Nagata Tomoya. -Yes.
"My Dream for my Future" by Nagata Tomoya.
"When I grow up I want to be a hero..."
"I would like to be just like my hero, Ultraman..."
"Tomoya wants to become like Ultraman because..."
"I want to protect the world..."
"..just like when Ultraman defeats the evil monsters..."
Tomoya will become a doctor in the future.
-Ayako-san. -Yes.
Tomoya has to be taught the value of a doctor's work
don't you think it should start now?
Oh but... he's only in first grade.
When Fumiya was still in first grade
he already wrote a composition about becoming a great doctor in the future!
She didn't want him to write about that.
But who's composition was it anyway?
That woman is only thinking of her own satisfaction rather than Tomoya's.
-Wait, are you listening? -Huh?
C'mon Seiji, say something...
Listen to me, will you?
-Hey.. did you change? -What?
-You've grown bigger, haven't you? -Wai-- stop it.
-Are these muscles? -Don't touch me.
-Mom. -Yes?
Grandpa doesn't want to buy me toys.
Well, too bad.
Grandpa, if you buy me toys...
I promise to study hard.
If I buy you toys...
you won't be able to study. It's bad for your brain.
Bye for now.
-You're going? -Yeah.
Where you going?
I'll just wander lazily about.
Where will you go?
Days off at the house are only boring when there are no people around.
He's running away again.
Ever since mom became ill he hardly stays home at all.
Yeah, well.. maybe he left because there's a scary person in the house.
When are you gonna be the breadwinner of this family, anyway?
-I don't know, ok! -But I'm wondering...
What could have caused mom's depression...
Is it really because you can't find a job...
or is it because you and dad are on bad terms?
Why... you think there's something else?
I'm not sure, I just have a feeling that there's a bigger reason.
-I'm home. -Oh, welcome back.
-Grandma! -Tomoya~.
-Let me help you with that. -Oh, thank you.
Wow... come here...
I'm sorry I wasn't able to go to your school.
I did a good job presenting my essay.
I want to be a hero.
Oh, I see.
Hey, Uncle Seiji... what did you want to be when you were in 1st grade?
Uh, no.. I already forgot.
You know, I still have Seiji's essay.
Eh?
I should have it here somewhere.
Uh, no, no.. It's ok, no need.
-Uncle Seiji. -Yeah?
-What do you want to be? -Now?
-Oh, good question. -Shut up.
Don't you have a dream?
Um... Nope.
-Why not? -Well you know...
If you're already an adult and you're still dreaming
then you're not facing reality enough.
-That doesn't make sense! -Of course, it doesn't make sense.
When you grow up I bet you you're gonna hate it...
And when you're bigger...
you won't say you want to be a hero anymore.
Thank you for waiting.
Oh, hello.
Hello.
Is it ok? Even though it's a Sunday?
Yeah.
Uh, here.
Eh?
Should I receive it? It has only been a few minutes.
It's ok, you can use it for whatever you like... clothes or shoes.
I know you can't afford to buy such things.
Thank you so much.
Bye, Mom. Call me if anything happens.
-Yes. -Bye.
-Yeah. -Bye bye!
-Bye bye. -Bye bye.
-Hello. -Hi.
-That was Ayako-chan, wasn't it? -Yes, that's right.
-I see. -Yes.
This is good enough.
-Thanks for sorting out the garbage. -Yeah.
You think maybe it will come back?
No, it's ok. I checked it many times.
Here.
All your essays from the past are in here.
Oh, thanks. But you didn't have to bother with it.
I gave up on my childhood dreams...
ever since my life became clear to me.
['Seiji's drawings and writings']
~Kimi tte kimi tte, naitari shinai n da ne~ *Don't you, don't you ever shed a tear*
~Omoidashite goran yo~ *Try to remember that*
~Watashi wa, watashi wa bukiyou dakedo ima wa~ *I maybe... I maybe... a little bit clumsy*
~FREETER, IE WO KAU~ "A Part-Timer Buys a House" ~Subete wo uketometai kara~ *But I'll accept you entirely*
~FREETER, IE WO KAU~ "A Part-Timer Buys a House" ~Koko ni iru yo~ *I'll always be here for you*
Subtitled by: earthcolors
Special thanks for the raws and retiming: sarujin, hydetech, and qop123
::Episode 3:: "My dad was my hero"
-Buy yourself more onigiri. -I can't, I'm already full.
You can't have a real man's tummy if you won't eat.
Oh sorry, I'll try to become a full-fledged man soon.
By the way, how long does one take to be in this job
before he's considered to be a real man.
Mostly around 10 to 15 years.
-Eh?... seriously? -Yeah, no kidding.
To become a full fledged man he must first get a real job.
Aww c'mon, that's not it....
So either way, you'll never be both.
Eh? You're so cruel.
Hey, Manami, can I have a minute?
Yes.
-Is this site right on track? -Yes.
-How is it so far? -Chiba-san...
...is surprisingly transparent, isn't she? -Huh?
She's totally into Yamaga-san.
You mean that contractor guy?
Yes. He's an architect from Kijima Construction.
Chiba-san is in the public works department for now...
but soon both of them
...will transfer to the Design department. -Design?
Akari-chan, can I have tea please.
Sure~.
-Good work. -Thanks for the hard work.
-Huh? Where's Akari-chan? -She just left.
-I'll go ahead. -Good work.
-Good job. -Akari-chan...
-Akari-chan~! -That guy...
he really likes Akari-chan, doesn't he?
Yeah, makes you wanna cheer for him.
-What's wrong? -Eh? Uh, no...
It's just that Akari-chan said she's not interested in anyone from here...
Except for the general contractors, they're different.
I don't blame her.
I also would want to be introduced to my colleagues.
I know... is it that contractor... the person that you admire?
Me?
Oh, I'm right, aren't I?
Well, it's just, you know that person is...
uh... how do you say this... he's a man I look up to, that's all.
So you're into father-figures, huh?
Don't be so malicious.
I'm not being malicious.
Akari-chan!
Teppei-san. Thanks for the hard work.
You wanna go eat out?
-Oh, you already know what my answer is. -Even so...
I still like you, Akari-chan.
But even if you ask many times, I'll still say no.
I still don't care.
I'm home.
Huh?
-Welcome home. -Oh, I'm back.
Say, I think someone's playing a trick on us.
I'll just take care of it.
-No, I wanna do this myself. -But...
It's ok, I'll find out who's doing this.
I wished I knew it.
Huh, what's wrong?
I couldn't understand why it happens.
It's ok... You've been doing this properly all along.
But...
Don't worry, just leave it to me.
Ok?
-Good morning. -Good morning.
Oh, good morning.
-What's the matter? -Oh, look here...
There's a bottle in this trash bag of PET bottles.
-Oh, it's Take-san again. -So I'm thinking...
of taking the bottle out.
Oh, Nishimoto-san is so nice to take care of it.
-Yes. -But if you do that...
...you'll be spoiling her. -That's right.
-Really? -Yes.
Well, if you insist, then I'll give this back to Take-san
so she can sort through it again.
-Of course. -Yes.
Hello.
I couldn't understand why it happens.
Mom, the garbage is back.
I knew it, you didn't make a mistake all along.
No, it was my fault.
No, I saw who's been doing it.
No.. it was my fault.
It wasn't Nishimoto-san's fault.
How come you know... it was Nishimoto-san?
You knew she was doing these mean things to you?
But why?
-Mom, since when had this been happening? -I'm sorry.
What has Nishimoto-san been up to?
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...
There's no need to be sorry, you're not to blame.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...
It's ok, I won't ask anymore... I won't ask anymore, mom.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...
What? It was our neighbor, Nishimoto-san? But why?
I don't know yet.
-Since when has this been going on? -I don't know either.
-"Why didn't you know anything?" -It can't be helped.
But I'm going to see what I can do.
Anyway, I'll also be going there soon.
Ok, bye.
You've been taking your medicine properly, right?
Yes.
Please continue with this rate...
and I'll issue you more of the same medicine.
Take-san, follow me please.
Thank you so much.
Uh, Doctor.
I guess we've learned what's wrong with her...
It's something to do with our neighbor...
She's been kinda mean to her.
-Mean? -Yes.
Oh, speaking of which... I remembered something from the past...
-What? -There was a rumor that I heard that
we weren't paying the neighborhood association fees
so I asked mom about it.
She said she just forgot to pay...
But I found it strange because
you only don't get to pay them if nobody came to collect.
-Eh? -Also...
when that old laundry granny died...
the only ones who weren't told about it was us.
So it means, Nishimoto-san was doing these mean things to her?
No, it's not just being mean, she was bullying her.
So how long ago did it happen?
I was still in high school.
So that was 10 years ago.
So it means that mom was being bullied all throughout this time.
I wonder why mom didn't say anything...
She didn't tell us how much she had been suffering inside.
No, it's our fault too for not noticing it sooner.
Yes.
If her current surroundings is the one causing her stress...
then it would be better to provide her with a new environment.
Oh, you mean... move to a new house?
-Yes. -Oh.
-No way we're moving. -Why not?
This house we're living in now was bought by my company...
...and I'm already done paying the 50,000 rent for this month. -I know that.
Regular rent for a house like that
...is 3 times more than that amount. -I know, ok?
It's like throwing away more than 100,000 yen every month - such wasted money!
What do you mean 'wasted money'?
In order to cure mom's illness we need to spend money.
It's just a small matter of not doing well with the neighbors, it's no big deal...
...there's no need to move. -It's not just a small thing with the neighbors...
For housewives, their world IS the neighborhood.
This small world they're living in is all they have.
Nothing more, there's nowhere else for them to escape to.
For more than 10 years... Mom had been suffering from this bullying for 10 years.
In the first place, Sumiko herself could have started it.
Don't blame her for her illness.
She's not ill, she just has a weak mind.* [*weak, vulnerable spirit]
Depression is a bonafide mental disorder, you know.
That's just speculation and exaggeration.
I'm telling you she just has a weak mind.
That's not right.
For now, the medicine she's drinking every day is the only thing making her feel stable.
Her mental weakness can be cured,
there's no need to move to another place.
C'mon Dad, just try to understand what depression is.
Even a little, try to understand it more.
No, he's hopeless.
Even if you understand it or you don't..
...just give out the money. -I won't give you the money.
-What do you mean you won't? -No means no!
All that money you've been saving up, what do you plan to use it for?
It's only right that I get to decide how to use the money which I earned...
Besides, a woman who has already married and left the house...
has no right to poke her nose into it.
All I'm saying is that if you give the money
it will help solve this situation. We can't do anything
unless you provide some money for it.
I absolutely will not give you anything... If you want it... then YOU pay for it!
What?
-You're heartless. -What?
-I said you're heartless! -What do you mean?
I think that's what a kind of a father you are...
You're nothing but a heartless person... I can't stand you!
Hey, you will pay for this!
What the heck is with that attitude?
And why the hell are you looking at me like that?
Are you expecting me to look at you with respect?
-See you tomorrow. -Thanks for the hard work.
-Good job. -You've worked hard.
Chiba-san, if you're going out drinking with your fellow contractors...
...please don't forget to invite me, ok?
Akari-chan.
I wanted him to hear it.
Teppei-san said he won't give up.
-Huh? -I just can't see myself marrying
..a part-timer in the future. -I think that employees
of Oetsu Public Works are hard workers...
I'm sure Teppei will be working hard for you.
But what happens if he gets hurt in an accident at work?
He could lose his job.
Besides, this is only thing that he can do.
We certainly don't want accidents to occur.
But it did happen, right?
Wasn't it around 2 years ago there was a falling accident
at Kijima construction work site.
The accident was supposed to be the responsibility of the general contractor
but they say that it was the subcontractor worker's fault, so they can't be held accountable.
What's it to you, anyway?
Sorry.
For how long will you let that accident affect you?
Manami.
What happened to Igarashi-san is already done so can you just let it go?
Please excuse me.
The moving costs are 200,000 yen...
150,000 x 12. So that's 1,800,000. 2 million in total.
Oh, welcome home.
I'm home. Thanks.
-Are you working too hard? -Huh?
Say, why don't you hire more people for the staff?
Nah... that'll be an added payroll, we have a tight budget right now.
-I see. -Well, I'll just soak in the tub first.
Ok.
She didn't tell us how much she had been suffering inside.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry...
She's not ill, she just has a weak mind.
Seiji!
-What are you doing? -Huh?
I wasn't doing anything. I normally pass along here.
What about you... what're you doing in a place like this?
-This place? -You looked so serious or something.
This happens to be my favorite place.
-You like this place? -Yes.
-Oh, you mean you like the night view. -It's not the night.
-Then what is it? -It's obvious!
What's so obvious about it? There's only the bridge.
Huh?
-You like the bridge? Seriously? -Yes.
But it's just a bridge, what else is there to it?
You know, a bridge is not just some...
common thing hanging in the air... It's a tremendous work built by man.
That bridge, for example...
is called a cable-stayed bridge, its structure is made up of...
towers, bridge girders, beam truss and cables...
...they all help support the bridge.
If you change the balance and the stiffness of the cable tensions and the bridge girder
you can build a very long bridge.
Plus, there are many different structures...
There are digit bridges, suspension bridges, truss bridges...
Rigid framed bridges, extra-dosed bridges, and arch bridges.
Oh, and examples of arch bridges are the Langer bridge and the Lohse bridge.
That's why I like them.
Perhaps, you got a job in public works
it's because you want to design bridges?
-Yeah. -So when did you start liking bridges?
I guess it was around when I was in kindergarten.
So at that time, you were already thinking of building bridges?
Yes, and when I was in 3rd grade...
my dad took me to see a new bridge.
-The bridge is done! -Manami...
we can finally go to that okonomiyaki restaurant we saw on TV.
-Yay! -Yoshi~ let's go!
-Wow! -Amazing, isn't it?
It connects this place to that place.
Manami...
Most people think that bridges are too crowded...
but it enables us to go to places and meet people...
Bridges are built because of people's hard work.
Those words of my dad made me first realize it.
'I see... it's people who build bridges,' I thought back then.
So it made me wish that I could also do amazing things like that.
So why are you embarrassed about it?
-I'm not embarrassed. -Yes you are!
You liked it since you were small, but you didn't become one.
Because I've been to places where I saw them building it...
I just thought I don't have what it takes to do it...
Ah! That's enough... I never talked about it with anyone before.
I envy you.
-Huh? -I mean...
When I was small, I also came up with some dreams...
But now that reality sunk in, I chose to forget about them.
You shouldn't think that way.
I shouldn't?
Yeah.
Even now, you can still have dreams.
Nah...
I don't think so.
Having dreams at this age
is like living a carefree life, isn't it?
Right now, I have to find a job.
And even after I restart again, my dull life will just continue.
Plus, my mom has depression.
I've never told anyone that.
I hope your mom will get well soon.
Yeah.
Back then, what kind of life did I dream of having?
['My Dream']
"'My Dream' by Take Seiji, Grade 1 - Class 2"
"When I grow up I want to be an accounting supervisor."
Accounting supervisor.
"An accountant works in a corporation..."
"His job is important because he takes care of the money..."
"While the supervisor is the leader..."
"My father is an accounting supervisor."
Back then, my dad was my hero.
"My mom..."
"...also has something that she looks forward to."
"I asked my mother what her dream is."
"She said, 'She hopes everyone in the family will be fine...'"
"'...and that we will be healthy and safe.'"
Back then, mom was the one who was holding my hand.
Let's eat.
Itadakimasu.
Idatakimasu.
Mom.
Do you want to move to another place?
I don't know when but definitely... we'll move out.
What now... what is it?
What the hell was that? We absolutely will not relocate!
Look, I'll get the money somehow.
There's no way you can do that.
You're only working part-time in construction? You're just going to quit that job soon.
I'm still set on finding a job. Right now, my part-time work is all I have and I'm not going to quit.
You don't know what you're saying.
May it be a small house or an old one I don't care...
I'm going to buy a house for her.
Don't be stupid!
You're just a freeter. There's no way you could buy a house.
I will buy one.
If that house will make Mom well again, then I'll buy it.
This freeter... is going to buy a house.
The height of the left roadbed is alright.
Next, the right side please.
The gradient is strong. Please take note of the measurements.
For how long will you allow yourself be affected by that accident?
What happened to Igarashi-san is already done so can you let it go?
['Igarashi']
['My Goal: Buy a House']
~Doro mamire no mainichi dakedo~ *Though life be smeared with mud*
~Ima sara nayandari wa shinai~ *Tis useless to worry about that now*
~Akireru hodo bukiyou dakedo~ *It maybe surprisingly awkward*
~Kokoro ni chikatta yume ga aru~ *Still a dream in my heart, a certain vow*
~Todokanai hoshi ga matataite~ *Unreachable stars are twinkling*
~Fureru you ni sotto toikaketa~ *Wishing to touch them*
~Yomigaeru kibou de kono mune ga itasarerutara~ *Softly I whisper, restore hope in my heart*
~Oikakeru dake~ *I'll just chase after them*
~Hatenai sora ga soko ni aru tte~ *An endless sky above*
~Ima tashika na koe ga kikoeru~ *A confident voice can now be heard*
~Tobenai jibun wo kaete ikou ka~ *Can't we change it and go fly up away*
~Fumidashite nando demo yarinaosou~ *May it be hard, let's move forward and start anew*
~Mienai mono wa nani mo nai tte~ *There's nothing you can't see*
~Sono tashika na uta ga kikoeru~ *A confident song can be heard*
~Kienai omoi ga koko ni arunda~ *These feelings will be here and never be gone*
~Itsudatte mou ichido tachiagarou~ *No matter when, let's all rise once again*
~Chikara tsuyoku~ *Resiliently*
Subtitled by: earthcolors
Special thanks for the raws and retiming: sarujin, hydetech, and qop123
Next on ~FREETER, IE WO KAU~ ::Episode 3:: "I can't bear to take care of my mother anymore"